Day to Day

Any idiot can face a crisis. It's day to day living that wears you out - Chekhov.

As someone who has a litany of deep wonderful wells of wisdom and knowledge in and around what it is to withstand and uphold. Many people in my life have either witness capacities I have in awe, in the inability to comprehend how.

And thus there comes a moment where people, even in high school, in college, and afterwards people would assume a posture in hopes that they themselves could recreate the strength.

But it's the day-to-day. To hold and or assume a posture that is not your own, will wear you out. Many times when someone sees a crisis, they will have a natural instinct, fight or flee. I had a psychology teacher and she would have us do an experiment every time someone came to our class to drop off a note or to X, Y, Z.

And we would begin to clap, the entire class would clap, typically the person would shrink back or look confused and take a few steps back. Then you would get the rare person who would take a bow. But these are the innate fight or flight. These are things that we can call upon.

So when one is facing a crisis, many a time, you already know how someone is going to handle it. Many a time, if we were honest with ourselves, we would know how we would face that crisis. However, it's the day to day. And so when we think of how do we handle. How does one endure? How can you replenish your well so the day-to-day doesn't wear you out?

And that is why, going back to my original statement in which many a people have a many a time, in their own way, assume a posture or position in which they wanted to hold strength and yet did not have the shoulders for the weight. It wears you out. And so that's the interesting thing about strength. Any idiot can face a crisis. Any person knows if you see a car accident, call 911. If you see something, say something.

But learning to heal, learning to refill your well, understanding your own capacity through honesty. Life can wear you out if you do not know how to heal, and life will wear you out if you pretend to be something you're not; because the exhaustion of a title taken, a posture assumed, a strength unrealized.

You're then acting, you're performing all the time, and so you don't get to lay down that burden.

You do not get to not be that strong. You do not get to no longer have X, Y, and Z that you have assumed onto yourself.

That toll, it's like someone saying, I'm a power lifter and they pick up 500 pounds. Okay, pick it up tomorrow. And the hope in the mind of someone grabbing that much weight is, oh, I'll just get strong. I'll just do it enough, right? I'll pretend enough. I'll pretend to be strong enough. And then I'll just get strong. But what happens is, is the first day you might have it, the second day, your knees tell you you don't. Your feet will start to tell you don't.

Your shoulders will start, right? You will break down. It will wear you out.

So it's learning to live a life, it's learning to be your most authentic self so that this world doesn't wear you out.